You tie the knot
And commit
To a lifetime
Of togetherness
—-
You promise to
Be there
Through sickness
And health
Good times
And bad
—-
You discover
Each other
Every day
Laugh and cry
At little things
And big
—-
You share
Moments
Of silence
And heated
Debates
All the time
Creating
Memories
—-
You take pictures
Freezing
Happy times
For eternity
Accomplishments
Travels
Milestones
Cataloged forever
—-
You know you
Will make it
Through the
Worst of times
Because you
Have
Each other
—-
And then
The inevitable
Happens
—-
You flip through
All those photos
A thousand times
Trying to
Relive
The happiness
—-
But all you
Feel
Is emptiness
—-
You still sleep on
Your side
Of the cold bed
Crying yourself
To sleep
Remembering all
Those times
You complained
About the snoring
—-
You frequent the
Closet
Hugging
The clothes
Smelling them
Missing the body
That once
Graced
Them
—-
You look
Around the house
Everything is
Just the same
Yet nothing
Is the way
It should be
—-
You read
Those letters
And e-mails
Traveling back
In time
—-
You smile
In between
Those crying
Fits
Thankful
For the time
You did have
Together
—-
You wish
You could
Rewind
Life
And pause it
Indefinitely
—-
You wish
You had
Died
Instead
—-
But here you are
Alone
—-
You find
Solace in
The life you
Knew –
The memories
You created
Together –
And hold on
To them
—-
For no one
Can take those
Away from you
—-
You move on
Knowing
That he will
Always
Be a part
Of you.

Yeah, this is exactly how it feels. God awful! You forgot to mention the weight loss. It only happened to me once, many years ago. It all came right in the the end, but it was hell to go through. You capture it well.
Death is never an easy thing to deal with but I believe we are all,at our core,energy & that energy goes on forever. I wrote a blog a longtime ago about my thoughts on death check it out if you’d like.
Death is apart of life & as with all other cycles in our life you can’t have one without the other. Acceptance of death can be freeing.
Thanks as always for your thoughts.
Hugs,
Bill
Im too afraid to even ask if this is personal…
Ill leave with simply saying, its profound needless to say, and all I could think of was the beautiful book I read about a similar subject, ”Ps. I Love You.” The movie did the book no justice. Ive only ever once felt that pain thru the blog of another lady in the real world, a young happily married doctor who lost her loving husband far too soon and began writing for catharsis… she one day disappeared with her soulful musings, off the face of the surfing world… but its rare to read of such heart felt connections… You’ve written a lovely piece touching upon this sensitive, painful reality of life…
Its just beautiful,very well written..
Thanks, Yogesh.