I am back

July 20, 2010

I apologize for being MIA the last week.IMG 06761 I am back

Attending a professional conference in the Midwest with a so-weak-that-it-was-practically-nonexistent wifi connection limited my ability to update this blog initially. But when I got back to a high-speed-internet-driven home, things only got worse.

Jetlag coupled with inextensible deadlines and days chock-full of meetings didn’t help.

Although the week was a blur, I was constantly nagged by the little voice in my head telling me I was being negligent.

Like the house plant you see but don’t really take the time out to water …

I neglected you, my readers … and for that I am sorry.

When I started writing this blog regularly a couple of months ago, I had made a vow to update it every day sans weekends. And I had been successful, even while on vacation in May.

But this time, the resolve weakened amidst multiple demands on an overtaxed mind.

The distractions have been many; the sleeplessness profound; but this short phase of silence has helped me realize how vital this blog is for me.

I feel empty inside when I don’t write.


Lonesome … but not lonely.

Carrying thoughts that are asphyxiated in their infancy.

Reacting to stimuli without registering anything.

Soaking, absorbing.

My mind bloated with ideas ready to burst out.

So here I am, back again, to share, debate, provoke, advise, question, and engage.

For those of you who e-mailed, called and came in person to ask if there was something wrong (“I haven’t been getting my daily e-mails from you. Everything ok?” some of you said with concern), thank you for making me feel wanted.

I appreciate your loyalty and eagerness to remain connected to this forum.

I shall not keep you waiting — and wondering — henceforth.

The week-long forced hiatus was not all in vain.

I did spend some time with friends I hadn’t seen in years, amassed new knowledge at the conference, was able to catch a few winks over the weekend, and reinvigorated my mind and body for this week.

Also, this past weekend, I watched Invictus (meaning undefeated) — a Matt Damon-Morgan Freeman biographical drama based on Nelson Mandela and his support of the Springboks, South Africa’s rugby team, that helped unite the racially-divided country. I highly recommend it.

The poem, Invictus, by William Ernest Henley, that Mandela was so inspired by, left a huge impression on me.

Henley had written it in 1875 after his foot had to be amputated due to tubercular infection.

His passion, resilience, and defiance moved me. Especially the last two lines.

I reckon it will give you some fodder for thought.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

‘Til tomorrow,

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11 Responses to I am back

  1. VyankateshNo Gravatar on July 26, 2010 at 9:48 am

    A break is always refreshing :-)

    Liked the last two lines of the poem –

    I am the master of my fate:
    I am the captain of my soul.

    Keep writing!!

    • MansiNo Gravatar on July 28, 2010 at 10:36 am

      Thanks, Vyankatesh!

  2. Susan DeborahNo Gravatar on July 26, 2010 at 10:48 pm

    Welcome back dear Mansi. Missed you here. I am glad you did many things while you were away. This was a lovely post with an assortment of many things.

    Life is a wonder and we always need to unravel many things.

    You have a great remainder of the week.

    Joy always,

    • MansiNo Gravatar on July 28, 2010 at 10:36 am

      Thank you, Susan. I was touched to get your e-mail, too. I’ve done a lot of meandering this past week…now it’s time for reflection :-)

  3. MattiasNo Gravatar on July 27, 2010 at 4:01 am

    Hi Mansi!

    Welcome back!

    Good poems are always welcome!

    And yet the menace of the years
    Finds and shall find me unafraid….

    • MansiNo Gravatar on July 28, 2010 at 10:26 am

      Thanks, Mattias!

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  5. BillNo Gravatar on July 28, 2010 at 3:57 am

    Welcome back Sweetie…missed you!



    • MansiNo Gravatar on July 28, 2010 at 10:25 am

      Thanks, Bill. It’s good to be writing again :-)

  6. Cyndi BriggsNo Gravatar on July 29, 2010 at 1:07 am

    I just got done blogging about my middle-of-the-night fears, so reading this poem was exactly what I needed right now. Thank you!

    • MansiNo Gravatar on July 29, 2010 at 2:58 pm

      Thanks for stopping by, Cyndi. Glad this helped somewhat :-)


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